dream

i had a scary dream last night. i dreamed that i was in an old apartment and a large, dumpy looking man was in my bedroom. he was their to make me quit my job (at an office, not the library) because he wanted my position. he wanted to move up in the company and he thought 'getting rid of' me would do it for him. so, i lied and called work to tell them i quit and they should give the job to Dufus. this did not appease him. he wanted to kill me and thus be assured of the job. i talked him out of killing me, or raping me and he finally left my apartment. i called 911 and heard a long, automated message about donating to hurricane victims. when i finally spoke with a person, they did not entirely believe me. finally, an officer arrived and the dream ended.

i cannot even guess the 'meaning' of this dream...and i do believe all our dreams have meanings. i can't identify the man, but he seems familiar. i was also home sick from work, in the dream. the man found me sick in bed.

what i did today: nothing!

well, i did nothing today and i was very happy to do it. i spent all day blogsurfing and talking with my husband. it's 1am and i am waiting for Art Bell to come on. i think he only does 2 sunday shows a month. damn. i miss him something awful.

i lit up all the pumpkins on my windowsill and after a half hour, the temerature in the room went up atleast 5 degrees. lots of candle tonight. i love to type by candle light. it's somehow easier on the eyes.

i have been having trouble editing my posts. the blog triangle thingie just spins and spins whether i want to edit or delete. the post shows up on the dashboard but not on my blog. GGGRRRRRR!

i spent a loy of time looking for free clipart. that took up atleast an hour. my butt is sore. i only have a cheap folding chair and it sucks to sit in it for any length of time. poor me!

i have nothing witty to say. i'm tired (finally) and i am not looking forward to the workday tomorrow. one of my coworkers and i had a screaming fight (she screamed MUCH louder) on thurday and monday will be the first day i have to work with her again. i really hate all the bullshit at work. there is so much of it. but atleast i did not leave the fight crying and threatening to quit like a drama queen. hurumph. maybe i should have.

did i ever mention that i HATE people. well, i do. just so you'll know. but i love bloggers.

i'll try this one more time

well,well,well, it has worked! and i did it all by myself! tomorrow, i will have forgotten how to do this and i'll be calling for help again.

well, today was my day off. i did nothing but blogsurf and listen to Dreamland and Coast to Coast AM. my husband called me a dozen times. typical for a sunday without a visit. he gets lonely easily. it has been freakin freezing in his cell. cold air is blowing thru the vent and if he blocks it off and gets caught, he could get a two-nighter or a five-nighter...which means no visits, phone privileges or yard privileges. the prison won't turn the heat on until November 1st. anyone who reads this, please remember to walk the proverbial straight line (or walk a crooked line, but don't get caught!) because prison is no place to be. some of the inmates consider it a vacation and practically love the place. they call their girlfriends/wives/moms and boss them around on their loved ones dollar and think nothing of it. i can hear inmates over the line SCREAMING at their wives and calling them bitches and both Maniac Mike and i wonder why the wives would even accept those calls. why? and some inmates will tell their loved ones not to visit on certain days because the inmate will be BUSY! busy? in a freakin prison? sheesh, i tell ya.

well, this is enough for one post. i'll be back after my shower and tell you about some cool blogs i found today. i think i will make it a sunday feature to tell you about some cool blogs, thus helping others to get some exposure (not that I get a lot of exposure) and please tell me where to find your blog, too. thanks.

what's wrong with me?

hey ho boys and girls. i can't believe it's almost 2:30 on my day off and i haven't posted yet. what is wrong with me, you might ask? let's see: iron deficiency anemia, pernicious anemia, Hashimoto's thyroiditis, migraines, PCOS, impaired blood sugar, CFID's, Fybromyalgia, erythromelalagia (very rare), posttraumatic stress syndrome, fibroids, colitis, and a general pain in the ass. but that's not why i haven't posted. i haven't posted because i am LAZY.

on the front page of the ProJo the other day, there was a photo of a family with 16 children! SIXTEEN! the baby maker (wife) had just given birth to the 16th. no one, NO ONE, in this day and age, should have the right to have so many kids. personally, any couple with more than one and a half kids should learn to keep their legs together and their pecker in their pants! so there! or, here's a novel idea, use birth control. or self control. we complain about welfare mothers being a drain on society...and you don't think one family with 16 brats isn't going to put a drain on or resources? oh, just so you know, the family was white as white can be. didn't read the article, but i bet they're Catholic. we Catholics love to produce. God forbid that the pope should think we were using birth control. nope, we'll show him...see...7 kids and no CONTROL! yippee. Every Sperm is Sacred!

i went out and came back in

i went out for a little while today. i didn't intend to. i was feeling odd and antsy and i needed to get out. i checked my mail (2 zines), deposited paycheck and went down to the mall. i don't know why i went to the mall because i had no fun there. i did buy cotton candy, a ceramic skull and some fairy postcards for my husband. i bought my sister the newest Barbie/Lucy doll. then i went to Newbury Comics and bought several CD's...Joy Division, Sepultura and Rock Against Bush volumes 1 and 2. and Gary Numan live, mission UK and a Goth compilation plus a Halloween scary sounds CD. oh, yeah, and Necrodeath. that's it. bought some Le Pens, too in different colors. thrilling day, eh. no wonder i bore myself to DEATH. sigh. i need some ACTION and i need it NOW!

lazy ass day

i'm drinking another IBC Cream Soda, sitting in front of this blog, wasting time. my apartment is a MESS and i should really be cleaning it up, or i could work on my "The Hunger" altered book, or i could pick out CD's for Hinoserm to put on my hard drive for the show, or i could organize my CD collection (alphabetical by artist), or i could do laundry or i could take a nap but Nooooo, i am here once again, writing for no one but me and the spammers who leave comments (buy my smelly oil fragrances, see my business supplies site) on my blog. i could also go to the bookstore or the craft store, but that means i'll spend money that i don't have. i could repaint my nails and get them all pretty for our visit tonight, or i could watch a horror movie or i could take a tranquilizer and veg out.

well, i got a call from Correctional Billing which handles calls from prisons. they want some more money so i'm on the phone, waiting to speak with a rep to tell them i paid on my bill. aaargh! my limit is $130 and when it gets close, they call me to ask for money. a royal pain in the ass. just one more way to suck the life out of the families of inmates. we do the time with them. we do the time.

good mornin'

well, another pleasant valley sunday is here. no work! sleep late! tastes great! less filling! i had some weird dreams last night that included drinking a bottle of soda with ants in it, skateboarding without a skateboard, a bizarre, second rate superhero and a deadline. it was all mixed up and nothing made sense. it did leave me felling stressed and i have a migraine this morning from it. i also couldn't seem to get comfortable all night.

my husband called me this morning at 8 am and he sounded okay, from what i can remember of the conversation. we have a visit tonight at 6pm. it's been a whole week since my last visit and we are both feeling pretty lost. i have the day off work tomorrow, but there is no visit and that sucks big time. having the day off is good though. yep, i like that. hey! i get to sit around and type in this blog all day! wooo hooo!